I was lying in bed half conscious when I got the best idea in weeks. I know it probably seems like I don't give a fuck about "romance" (and I did a test from some teenage girl oriented magazine that said so - yes I do hate my life). So I thought I'd clarify this... thing.
I hate the
fake, middle-aged, conservative version of romance. You know, the one with flowers and going to restaurants, and the man having to be this prince-type and the woman being this helpless little creature that has the right to bitch about everything. I know a lot of people find it desirable, so yeah, go for it, but I'm planning on actually being happy with someone.
Here's where the irony kicks in. My ideal is kind of based on my parents' relationship as I see it now. They go to football games and cruises, and fall asleep on our couch all the damn time. They go sit outside for a while when they're in the sauna. It's one of the most romantic things I've seen in my life.
So maybe there's something horribly wrong with me, but I want an equal, fun relationship. I wanna go to ice hockey matches and watch movies and sleep together and not care about how things are supposed to be.
Also, it's disgusting how having children or getting married have turned into this achievement. It's not "natural" anymore, but instead it's worth this big fuss. Maybe it's just my conservative side, but marriage is literally paperwork that ties you together a bit more, and children.... Yeah. Some people just really can't deal with just pets.
I have never been this honest about anything help me.
